Happy Father’s Day
Today is Father’s Day; the day we celebrate Dads and father figures who are out there doing their thing. For me, today was a crazy emotional day. I couldn’t put my finger on it originally, but I’d say around mid-afternoon, I snapped. I’m not even sure what triggered it, but I was an emotional wreck and unfortunately, my kids got the brunt of it. Oh, man, talk about a downward spiral. I mean, this is supposed to be a celebration of Dads everywhere who really don’t get the recognition they deserve. What do I do? Have a nervous breakdown.
As I was reading through all the Father’s Day posts on Facebook, I was very surprised by how many were tributes. I had no idea so many have lost their Dads either recently or for quite some time. The parallels are all the same – there’s that void, a missing piece that’s hard to explain unless you’ve been through it. I’m not sure if the “time heals all wounds” bit really works in this case. I know it’s still fairly new for me, but some of my friends whom I’ve spoken with tell me it hasn’t healed. Once again, it’s quite an experience.
The boys spoke with their Dad on Skype this morning, and Isaac, tonight’s night owl, go to say goodnight to him. I’m thankful for these little ways to keep connected even though we’re miles apart.
My Mom called today and we chatted for a bit. She tells me that every night she has dreams about Dad and they’re pretty much full-on conversations. It’s as if he’s right there. It’s a lot different for my Mom, and she seems to be okay. But she sees him every night. I still really haven’t seen him. I’ve got my memories, but I haven’t had that vison from the other side or the conversation from the beyond. I’m not sure if I will and for a while I thought maybe I was weird for not “seeing” him.
Some days are good; some days aren’t so great. Those days that challenge you really put you to the test. At least tney have for me.
I hope you all got the chance to celebrate Father’s Day with your Dads and/or father figures today; told him how much you love him and recognize that he’s one of the grat ones. To those who share memories of their Dads because he’s no longer with us, I’m sending lots of love and hugs your way, and hope you were surrounded by lots of loved ones.
Take care, all, and be well.