Put to the Test – 100 Day Blog Challenge Day 17

I am being tested today, and there’s 2 1/2 hours left on this day.  It looks as if my laptop is on the fritz ( thank goodness I backed up my files) and I’m blogging from my phone.  My typing skills are being tested on my trusty Samsung S III, although this is NOT what my intention ever was with my phone.  So far, so good, but it’s a challenge.  After all, I said one blog a day for 100 days, and that’s the goal.
Today is my Dad’s Birthday.   He would have been 64 today and tomorrow will be 11 months since his death.   It’s still a bit unreal for me and needless to say, my emotions are all over the place. 
I’ve been a bear towards my kids and I should be up for WORST Mother of the Year.  My goodness,  they’re kids and I’m taking things out on them when I shouldn’t be.
This morning, I looked outside my window and was greeted to the sight of dog poop.  This was the winter from HELL, but now that the snow has melted, HOLY CRAP!!!  I’ve been here for almost 11 years and I don’t think I was prepared for such a sight.   The city girl in me definitely showed up.  Geared up for the event, and headed into no-man’s land.  Isaac helped as well and he was having a BLAST.  Me?  Not so much.
HOLY CRAP!!!  I felt like I was literally knee-deep in s#!t!!! When I started, I was cursing like a sailor.  Goodness gracious,  I’ve never seen so much.  Add to the fact my emotions were all tired over the place didn’t make a great combo.  But, we got most of it done today.   There’s about 10% left.
Looking back on it now, it wasn’t THAT big a deal.  Now, it’s kinda funny.   But, we got it done.
So, here I am, sitting on my couch, reflecting on the day, and I think it culminates from a pool of emotions that has been building.   This truly sucks and there really like s no other way to describe it.  I was hoping it wouldn’t take over and I’ve been told that some days will be better than others.  But, dang, when  it takes over,  it’s not fun.  
I just need to recognize it,  let it happen,  then move on. 
I have been put to the test today.  And I think I survived. 
Tomorrow is another day.

Just Keep Swimming – 100 Day Blog Challenge Day 15

Just Keep Swimming

With each character I type, I cringe at the thought that my laptop may freeze up on me again.  not really sure what’s going on, but for the past couple days, my lovely “companion” has been acting up. I’ve done system checks, defragment, disk cleanup and backed up my files.  Still, my laptop is not feeling well, so I am typing as quickly as I can my thoughts for today, hoping and PRAYING it doesn’t go bonkers.

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming…

Today, the boys were quite the handful and this was a lovely uphill battle.  I’m not sure

how I’m going to handle the teenage years!!!  At some point, the toilet decided it wasn’t going to flush anymore.  One simple little part has worn off and I have to wait until tomorrow to get the part.  So until then, it’s literally a manual flush every time.  I may very well end up in an insane asylum.

Breathe…breathe…just keep swimming, just keep swimming…

Anyhow, not trying to be a Debbie Downer here, but today is definitely one of those days where I could use a Fast Forward.  Not sure if I want to Rewind because I don’t think I want to relive the day.  But, I realize I need to let it go and move on, which can sometimes be my weakness.  

Breathe in, breathe out…

Ahh, MUCH better!!!

I could definitely use a getaway right about now.  For some reason, Lenny Kravitz’s “Fly Away” comes to mind.  I think I’ll play it for a bit and dance around my living room.  That might do the trick.  Besides, he’s awesome Eye Candy.

Hmmm, I’m starting to feel better already.

So far, so good on the computer, but, I’m not gonna take any chances.